Just complaints...

I am flying to NYC next Friday for a weekend with friend J, and it now seems to be a stupid decision.

J told me about his interviews in NYC and he said after we went back from the info session of Royal Bank of Scotland, "You should totally come with me! It's nice to know and talk to the people working in the financial industry. I have scheduled up with three people and we can meet them up. It will be fun." He emailed me the itinerary that night, and my increasing urge to find a job along with the inviting words motivated me to book the tickets of the same flight.

And then the next day I told him about my success of getting the ticket, and he said, in an awful shock, "Amy! I couldn't believe you take it so serious! Most of my interviews are official, and I am not sure if those people want to meet up for coffee." He told me to cancel the flight.

I think again I take people's words too serious-- or simply too credulous. But please, people, don't act like so inviting when you don't mean to! It does not hurt me that you don't invite me, and it is not okay when you use the pronoun 'we' and later you say that is a misinterpretation.
Fuck the time that I frantically spent on editing the resume till 4 o'clock for two nights in a row.

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I am still going to NYC anyway because canceling cost 175 dollars out of the 239 dollar round flight. So recently I tried to find people to meet up in NYC to complete the trip, and also make few campus visiting for the law school. If I failed to meet anyone, then NY City Ballet Theater will be a good compensate anyway...


And I have been working and studying and dancing so much these few weeks, totally sleep deprivation. When I called home, my mom thought I am going on a love trip (she thought I am dating friend J), and my dad even questioned me if I worked hard enough. My dad does not believe connection is important for his daughter to find a job, and he refuses to wire me up with his friends who work in related industry. That was the moment I would really love to curse. And for Asian parents, your kids know the difference between friendship and relationship probably better than you, and they know who they are dealing with and what they are doing. There is friendship between two genders.

F that, I am going to spend the money I earned from the hours sitting in front of the laptop in the office at 7 pm on Friday evening.

So angry...